Recently I’ve made a lot of big changes in my life. Moved interstate. Moved in with my boyfriend. Finished up with some long term clients. And I’m saving to buy a house. I love change! It’s full of adventure and it brings new and exciting developments. So why do I feel so strange? Off centre and not driving forward in my usually ambitious manner.
I’ve always welcomed change in my life and am a firm believer in the whole door closing and a window opening business. Or vice versa. What is often not mentioned when these new and exciting changes happen, is the exhaustion that comes with it. The long drive from NSW to the Gold Coast ( much more to come on that) and the move into the house I got! Moving house and Interstate is tiring. But after a few days, it’s back to business as usual right? Nope! It’s the emotional wave and the shift into my new zone I was not ready for.
It’s taken me two weeks to give myself grace for feeling this way. I felt lethargic, drained and a little bit lost really. I’m in this glorious new location (see the walkway to my pool above for just one example!) with so much activity and beauty all around me. I’m overjoyed to be living with my partner and stepping onto this new path together. I’m thrilled for him and his new job. It’s a new life together and there is so much possibility. I’ve felt awful that I am feeling tired and worn out. How can I feel this way when I have so much to look forward to and I feel so genuinely happy in my surroundings?
Well – that’s change for you folks. It’s a shift in energy. A new mindset. Let alone the new timezone for me, literally. I started to worry about the future. What happens now? What’s next? What do I do?! I’m someone who always plans the next move, I think two steps ahead and I’m prepared for the next adventure to begin. I’m not ok with the … lull.
Some darling friends gave me Unicorn cards for my birthday this year. I love unicorns, so they nailed it on the present front. They know me too well. I was in quite a state last week and I asked the cards… “please, tell me what to do next”. And I then pulled out this card … CHANGE! “The changes you’re going through are positive.”
I sighed audibly with relief.
Change is a natural part of life. For most people, changes come in a series or spread out over time. That’s not my style of course. All the changes, all at once please! The more the merrier.
I guess it makes sense – but it didn’t feel natural to me feel so thrown by the changes. I felt so unsure and off. I worried if maybe I had made a bad decision and this wasn’t the path I’m meant to be on. But it is. The changes are positive. Change isn’t easy – and it’s the challenge that makes it even better! A time for growth and development. Pushing the comfort zone and making us take the next uncomfortable yet fruitful leap.
This new understanding has given me such an ease in these past few days. I’ve now given myself permission to be tired, to take it easier and to adapt at my own pace to the new. I can’t wait to see what happens next… but it’s ok if it takes a little while longer to all fall into place. I’m ok if I don’t fire on all cylinders every moment of the day… I’m in QLD – RELAX!
So for now, you’ll all have to suffer through my sunshine and roses posts as I literally go out and walk around in the sun and smell roses! I so look forward to exploring and experiencing my beautiful new life on the Gold Coast.
Have you had a big change lately? How have you adapted to the new? I would love to hear from you.